Wsup hoe

Hi. I like men.

Hi babe,

Its been a long day today.

As of late, I’ve been juggling the thoughts of you, work, the night I fly over, my future, food, Sippee, our future and so much more. But above all, us is what I think about deeply. Still, I can’t get over how we came about. Butterflies still roam very heavily in my tummy when we talk. Especially when you call me babe, and I’m able to say the same, I love it all.

You’ve become apart of me babe.

I can’t help but see you in my future. Heck, when you say our kids and all that, it’s wild haha. Cause you’re speaking my mind…. In my head, I’m saying ours everything haha!

Throughout the days and nights, I tend to think how it’d be when you’re finally my girlfriend, er boyfriend. Really though, I want to experience so much with you. I want to experience things as your boyfriend. So I can then come to that day where I’m able tell my friends, “Yup, Kim..yea, my girlfriend, we went over there the other night” or, “Yea, we rock climbed that mountain, yessir my girlfriend and I.” Full smile on my face and all.

I just want you. This countdown I have on my phone, every time I look at it, it gets me so excited babe.

It gives me that feeling like, yes..this is it. This is genuine. The girl you love, she’s gonna be right there.

It’s gonna be our moment. I imagine thousands of times that when I step off that plane, I’m gonna be able to hold you and feel you, finally. To feel your warmth, smell your scent, see your smile, hear your voice and absorb the moment.

I just get so happy.

..this headache isn’t helping..

Kim…, babe.., Pluto girlfriend,

As I’m all laying here on my bed and having you on the phone at the same time. I’ve got all these thoughts just running through my mind. Wow, I just can’t have a frown on my face right now. Throughout this whole day babe, I’ve been so happy. Endless thoughts of you since I woke up!

I believe it was because of last night. When I dropped that serious conversation about our signs and such. I just wanted to have that with you. Wanted to just lay next to you, have meaningful conversations with you. Bounce opinions and insight off each other.. It’s just something I see us doing in the future.

To expand and grow together is a part of what I believe in us. In, us. You and I. Kim and Lasty. My initials (yours too haha!), flipped backwards. KL..LK. With the exception of your Tootie name haha!

But you know what makes this all feel so great for me.. Is that there was no expected chance of us happening. I had nill to zero of a chance of being with you. Yet, we grew. A little seed, now roots growing, small leaves blossoming. It really feels endless.

.. Your singing just made me tear up.. Haha!

Babe, I’m here though. I love you, I care for you.

When the time comes and we’re together, I can’t help but want to keep you warm when it’s cold. Keep you entertained when you’re bored. Share a joke no one else would understand but ourselves. Hold your hand tightly as we go for late night walks. Pick out which watermelon to get with you.. Just..want that loving experience with you.

It’s only been a couple of months, but already, you’ve made me feel like I’m on top of the world. That nothing else matters. If someone were to rob me, I’d gladly let that person rob me and at the same time, tell that robber.. I’ve got the single best Pluto girlfriend out there. In no way can you rob her from me, no way would I let her go.

Reason being..

You accept me for who I am. You don’t judge me. You’re open to me. You say things that I’ve never thought about in that particular way. You’re not one dimensional on thoughts and accept what I have to say. All of these things, I hold in my heart..

I just love it all.

Things get all wild for me though.. When I start playing songs that would relate to how I feel about you. Just can’t help the way I feel, haha!

I remember that night you told me you love me. It was surreal. You said it. I couldn’t believe it.. It was so amazing, the feeling your words brought to me. It made me wanna just ask you.

That’s gonna have to wait.

;)

Til this day, this night..I get those same feelings whenever I read or hear you tell me that you love me. This is a feeling I want to grow…old..with.

There’s more to my thoughts, but it’s gonna have to be set aside.

Within time, I’ll tell you more.

I love you Kim. - Lasty.

Hi Babe,

We were Skyping and my cell phone died on you. I’m letting it charge right now while writing this to you. Literally writing to you. Lol… The whole time I was being a doctor, I was thinking about you, about us.

Seeing you today…wow. Really heart warming. The way you smile, the way laugh, I just love it all. Not to mention, we shared laughs without you even saying a word! That meant a whole lot to me. I really felt like I was there with you. The sensation to give you a tight hug or blow you twenty kisses, I wanted to do so bad. I wanted to be there physically.

You had me in awe. Just the connection with you. It’s so amazing! I simply can’t wait…to drop popcorn in your mouth as you lay on me. To see your mustache. To admire your socks. To watch a movie with you. To cuddle with you. I could only imagine what laughs and priceless moments we’d share in person.

What I describe is just a small sample of how I feel. Especially this morning. When your zombie self said those ‘three little words.’ I was beyond happy. My mind was in nirvana, my body was numb with ecstasy, all my senses were exploding… I got so high off of those words, high off of you. I know it slipped and you weren’t really awake, but I’ll be more than happy to take it.

I absolutely love it. Love the way that you don’t judge me. Love the way that last night, we got to air our thoughts out and it was so great. Loved how we just talked about things. I don’t think I’d have it any other way. We experienced it together.

You bring out a side of me that I didn’t know was there. Never have I thought that I’d be able to call you babe. Every time I call you babe, or you return the sweetness, I’m just ecstatic. I want to share my thoughts with you. I want to share my feelings with you. I want to wrap my sweaty legs around you. I just want you. I want your body. I want your heart. I want your love. Gah! Writing this all fast paced..my hearts beating super fast turbo pshh mode.

Babe, my feelings toward you have grown so much. I care about you, about what’s going on from your elbow driving to your snacks being stolen to how your heart feels. I wanna go more in-depth with you and definitely look forward to a future together with you. As I said before, I am down for you. Down for us.

I can’t help but feel that yes…my mom would be mother in-law.. Yes, we gonna have the bombest cute cream colored babies ever. Everything. I want to build together, with you. Heck, gonna even buy a Jack in the Box franchise and have it in our kitchen. Only available to you and myself! Never will I finish your combos, but I’ll finish all your other foods! Haha!

But really..

What you wrote in your message, reflects a lot on how I feel as well. I’m surprised you watch my short YouTube videos. That you make an effort to even memorize my coworkers. Memorize that I’ve got love for pasta. That I used to park across the street from my school so I wouldn’t have to pay for fees! Hahaha!

You’re just that amazing to me. I love you and I surely do love us, Pluto edition. The things you shared with me from your childhood days to your current activities, I cherish deeply. When I was able to open to you, it just felt so right, so natural. Everything…just natural. A part of me loves you for these things.

With patience, I know our time will come. The day we lock eyes, lock hands, lock lips…ahhhHHHHH! HAHA! I’ll just have to wait it out. But that time will come soon…And I wish that time just slows down during the hours, minutes, seconds, milliseconds, nanoseconds, KimLeseconds, Kaikhouneseconds, Tootieeconds, YouAndIseconds that I am with you.

Cliffs -

Simply put, I love you.

- Warrior Princess Lasty Kaikhune

Got me all weak in my knees.

Ps - My knees are built too.

Can’t feel much better today than I already am now. I’m ecstatic.

Got a name plate with my last name spelled incorrectly. And got some words out for some clarity, for both sides. Oh, saved $8 dollars by eating a cup-o-noodles today for lunch. Not to mention the day is so clear out today.

Amazing.

We’ve both agreed that we’re on the right track. We’ve both agreed that our house won’t be made out of bricks, solely due to me being picky about the material. We’ve both got a bit more clarity, and that makes me happy. Very much happy.

- I was going to put more, but got interrupted by my co-worker. Lol.

I feel refreshed. So damned refreshed.

I’m excited for what comes in the future.

Only time will tell. I’m in it to win it.

Its been,

So pleasurable to have you in my circle. Your presence is very warming and accepting. Your words, good or bad, serves me laughs and joy. Things others don’t know about me, even my closest friends and family, I’m able to open up to you. When you say you won’t judge me, I believe you.

I got all the reassurance I needed this morning. But I suppose, the bigger picture shows that you’re the one looking for reassurance.

I’m here for you babe. And I know my part of the fence may not seem as clear, I apologize for that. But I believe the chips will fall where they may, and at the end we’ll find ourselves together.

Together, not in an imaginary world that we’ve toyed around with in our minds. But in actual reality. Together, we’ve already built a foundation that we didn’t dream of happening. I want to give you my hands and build our dream, together.

I want you in my life. I too, want to know about what you’re thinking, how you’re doing, are you hungry, do you need to take a nap, are you energized, did you walk your companion, do you need your alone time, and so much more.

I want you.

I want us.

I definitely want to give us a chance. I miss you.

PS - I hate Udoh, but I like you doe.

I wonder,

Is she over the past, and ready for the next one?

I don’t want to be the one in line, I want to be the one that closes the line. Closes the doors. I want to be the one that ends her search.

Even if she wasn’t searching. I wanna be what pops up if she decides to Google search that ‘person.’

I wanna be her delivery service and bring her goods. Although I may not be the best vendor out, I wish she gives me a chance. I’ll try damned hard to deliver.

I feel that she’s right. Maybe its just wishful thinking. But hey, a man can dream right.

/sleeping now.

Hi Journal,

What a great day today is. So amazing. Kim

Sup doe. Stand up, pull back, aim n relax. Taking a piss nigga latez.

Hello.

I’m Lasty K.

I enjoy being alone and re-energizing myself by blocking everything and everyone out. As it may not be much to you, nor do you probably care much, it means a tid bit to me.

My alone time is in the shower. I stand in there for a good 15 minutes before stepping out. While I do enjoy the warmth of the soaking water, I use that fifteen minutes to ready myself. At times, I question if the things I do and how I go about doing them are normal. I don’t tend to socialize well unless I believe the person will bring something insightful into my life.

Small talk, I tolerate a lot when it comes to socializing. I find myself observing a person very deeply as they’re talking to me. I analyze their facial expressions and the message their body conveys. While doing this, I also think about how I’m going to reply back. But my response is very short and the conversation ends rather quickly.

Since I was young, I’ve never really socialized much. All I ever did was observe the environment around me as well as the people around me. I was never the type to say much. And as life went on, I started questioning myself if this was a stage of being shy or just outright strangeness.

I always envy’d those whom were able to carry conversations on like no other. But I noticed those conversations have not much substance in them. More full of blank statements and irrelevant rhetoric. So as I saw this happening, I tried to replicate these actions. Sometimes I’ve been successful, sometimes not. At the end of the day, I find myself gaining nothing from this and just again…re-energizing myself with self-thinking in the shower.

While that was probably the most thoughtless rant or what have you, just by typing that out, I’m happy and content. Weird, I know.

Thanks for reading my b.s. Still not sure if I’m normal or not. I should stop trying to find out.

Let me post something right quick. Hi babe.